5 people want to know...

So, my blog is up and running. BIG milestone for me! As my husband cheered me on,
"That's great, babe! What's on your mind? Five people want to know!!" (wink, wink)
Well, you five fabulous people, than you for following me. I hope I keep it interesting for you!

Once upon a time...I was a full-time working mom and wife. I commuted almost 4 hours a day. I worked about 12 hours a day. I skipped my lunch break to try and get out at a reasonable time, and it wasn't enough...for anyone. Truth be told, I was distracted at work. I was unfulfilled. I was missing my children, my husband, a life. I had so much to do, to juggle, I had to multi-task and cram my personal life into the cracks and crevices of my work life. Sound familiar?

The whole thing became impossible. It was a broken routine. We knew it, we talked about it, and yet what to do about it? We HAD to keep going like that... Didn't we? We had no choices...Did we? This what what people HAVE to do...Don't they?

We all have those moments of clarity, right? When all the waffling, confusion, and areas of gray are no longer. Your instincts are like a tuning fork, and the message is a buzz in your head that is loud and clear. You crumble your pro and con list, toss it in the garbage. You know what you have to do. You know what is next. The fear is gone. It's going to work out.

I had that moment. I remember I walked down to the loud busy street in NYC. I looked around. I watched all the people headed to their next destination. I thought about the mornings I'd rushed through those door. I called my husband and said, "This is over. This whole thing we've been struggling with. It's over." I could feel a ball of excitement forming in my stomach. I was totally sure this was the right thing to do. So, was Andrew.  Quick thoughts about Andrew...For anything we've ever disagreed about along the way, he's NEVER held me back from change. He's been my support, my cheerleader, and my voice telling me that it'll all work out.

From there it was a series of conversations, and 4.5 years of my life was over. It's amazing how much time you invest in your job, and how quickly your paperwork can be wrapped up in the end.

I. Never. Looked. Back.

Ava, Me and Jonah - August 2010