Monday, June 27, 2011

5 people want to know...

So, my blog is up and running. BIG milestone for me! As my husband cheered me on,
"That's great, babe! What's on your mind? Five people want to know!!" (wink, wink)
Well, you five fabulous people, than you for following me. I hope I keep it interesting for you!

Once upon a time...I was a full-time working mom and wife. I commuted almost 4 hours a day. I worked about 12 hours a day. I skipped my lunch break to try and get out at a reasonable time, and it wasn't enough...for anyone. Truth be told, I was distracted at work. I was unfulfilled. I was missing my children, my husband, a life. I had so much to do, to juggle, I had to multi-task and cram my personal life into the cracks and crevices of my work life. Sound familiar?

The whole thing became impossible. It was a broken routine. We knew it, we talked about it, and yet what to do about it? We HAD to keep going like that... Didn't we? We had no choices...Did we? This what what people HAVE to do...Don't they?

We all have those moments of clarity, right? When all the waffling, confusion, and areas of gray are no longer. Your instincts are like a tuning fork, and the message is a buzz in your head that is loud and clear. You crumble your pro and con list, toss it in the garbage. You know what you have to do. You know what is next. The fear is gone. It's going to work out.

I had that moment. I remember I walked down to the loud busy street in NYC. I looked around. I watched all the people headed to their next destination. I thought about the mornings I'd rushed through those door. I called my husband and said, "This is over. This whole thing we've been struggling with. It's over." I could feel a ball of excitement forming in my stomach. I was totally sure this was the right thing to do. So, was Andrew.  Quick thoughts about Andrew...For anything we've ever disagreed about along the way, he's NEVER held me back from change. He's been my support, my cheerleader, and my voice telling me that it'll all work out.

From there it was a series of conversations, and 4.5 years of my life was over. It's amazing how much time you invest in your job, and how quickly your paperwork can be wrapped up in the end.

I. Never. Looked. Back.

Ava, Me and Jonah - August 2010



    Yay for you sweetie. I quit too after many years in the work force, but was fortunate enough to quit before the family arrived. Precious days! I hope you continue your dream and look forward to reading more!

    Suzy xxx

  2. Suzy, thank you! I really appreciate your thoughts, and encouragement. Can't wait to check you out...

  3. I'm in on the ground floor! Where can I get my 'original 5' T-shirt?

  4. That is such a great idea, Jeff...hmmm, thinking...

  5. I love the T-Shirt idea!!! Seriously! I wish I could tell you how betrayed (is that the right word??) I felt as a young mom who had to work - how much I missed being a mom and enjoying those years. I think my generation had it backwards. Yeah, it's important for a woman to fulfill herself professionally, and use her gifts. But your generation has a real opportunity here - you've waited to have your kids, gone out there in the world and slayed a dragon or two ... now it's time to spend that time with those precious people you're preparing for life. What more important job is there??? I can only tell you that when I think back over my life, the first thoughts that always come to mind are things we all did as a family. :-)

    Go Beppa!!!

  6. Beppa! Forgot about that one. I was just having a similar conversation over lunch. Blog coming soon more about this.